Ladies: Your opinion of this guy, ME!!?

i live in a nice area of the city, between 3 tourist destinations and the 4th is the river, and corresponding river walk . i live in a gov't owned rent control that just recently became a virtual crack house. there is a tiny store down stairs, cash only, although i have a cheque, no means of cashing it, my buddy won't come down til the shooting stops! only had abt. $4.00 in the place so i bought a bag of cat food, and a single cigarette. no human food for that price. so i been going hungry for 2 days, my cat hasn't. my lady friend whom i thought was more than a friend, said she thought i was a wussy so/so, and wouldn't even lend/give, me some bread crusts. agree with her, or think i'm a kind compionate fella for putting the defenseless cat first? by the way i aint no wuss, heavily tattoed, was a prison guard and more than once a prisoner! it really is that bad out there a bloody war zone.